I just realise there's 1 sms I did not read properly. I went back and read all the messages again (stupidly i noe).

"Yes u must realise im totally sick"
This even cause me much more damage, much much more. How can I accept such words? Just tell me how not to feel hurt, or not to feel sad?

I need a brain wash. I need to be strong. But definitely the damage is done, so much so i do not know how to comfort myself anymore.